A [quirky] Thought

Karl Lagerfeld should have made the book-smell perfume rumor true. His perfume is going to be a major hit because one day the world will go completely paperless and the only way to smell a book is through his perfume.

That would make a nice branding strategy, wouldn't that?

I mean, Karl is either a vampire or any other kind of immortal being. Unlike us--the mere mortals--he would still be around when the world eventually goes completely paperless.

Think about the millions of people who would want to buy the perfume: the fashion people, any fashion followers who basically would buy anything branded, the socialites and celebrities for the sake of being in-the-now, and most importantly, the entire new generation who has never experienced a thing called "paper" in their life. That would sum up to an enormous sales figure.

... Or maybe Karl has thought about it and he's saving the book-smell perfume plan for another century or two. You know, he is immortal and beside, he is Karl.

"Books are a hard-bound drug with no danger of an overdose. I am the happy victim of books."

Karl Lagerfeld

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"If you find yourself perplexed, or perhaps in a quandary, remember that human growth is perpendicular. We grow up and we grow forward, we just have to keep growing steadily in both ways."

Johnny Rzeznik

He spoke as if he was Bones. This man is extraordinary.

Passion

"Passion... It lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir, open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us, guides us. Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments; the joy of love, the clarity of hatred, and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered, and dank. Without passion, we'd be truly dead."

Angelus

Buffy the Vampire Slayer-Passion (1998)

Heart/Logic

Will you betray your heart and follow logic?

Would you feel like selling your soul to the devil?

Anna Wintour didn't get to be where she is now instantly. She quit school and worked at Biba; then jumped from one magazine to another, even to the one not fashion-related... yet she managed to get what she wanted: to be the Editor in Chief of US Vogue.

Victoria started out her career as a bubble gum girl band member, married a superstar soccer player and then ascended to the throne of WAGs. Taken for granted for years... yet she managed to give birth to her own fashion label and build her successful name as a fashion designer from scratch.

Even the fictional Temperance Brennan. Started out as an orphan who moved from one torturing, loveless foster parents to another for years... managed to get her self well off as the best forensic anthropologist in the world and a New York Times' best selling author.

John Rzeznik was from a not-so-perfect working class family and become self-reliant at such early age. He and the band didn't even taste a huge success until Iris came out.

Does this could mean that...

In the end, heart gets what it desires; even though in the way, heart must trade itself with logic. Patience and hardwork will eventually lead the heart to get what it desires. Is that so?

I guess right now in my case, logic kicks heart in the ass. 

Maybe one day heart will find a way to get even with logic.

"When you're feeling all wrong in the back of your mind again

How does it feel?

When you drop down everything's all the same

...

How does it feel when you find out what you're not gonna be?"

"How does it feel when you're out on your own and now it's too late to come home?

It's hard to be free when you're down on your knees

Take it easy 'til you make it alone."

"When it's all about money and the things that you need

Live a big lie and they all believe

Now I just find that somehow obscene."

"Lies weigh more than truth. Innocence looks good on you."

What A Scene

"Stranger than your sympathy. I take these things so I don't feel.
I'm killing myself from the inside out. Now my head's been filled with doubt.
It's hard to lead the life you choose. All I wanted.
When all your luck's run out on you. All I wanted.
And you can't see when all your dreams are coming true.
Oh yeah, it's easy to forget, yeah.
And you choke on the regrets, yeah."

Sympathy

"You take a lot of chances with your feelings. No one really knows what you feel.
And fiction is the only way you're dealin'. You turn your pretty head if it gets real."

"You see a little stranger in your mirror. The girl you never knew is what you fear."
Think About Me

"You're naked inside your fears. Can't take back all those tears."
Naked

"They painted up your secrets with the lies they told to you.

And the least they ever gave you was the most you ever knew.

And I wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way.

What's the point in all this screaming, no one's listening anyway."

Acoustic #3

"Even though the moment passed me by, I still can't turn away.
All the dreams you never thought you'd lose got tossed along the way."

"Scars are souvenirs you never lose, the past is never far.
And did you lose yourself way out there?
Did you get to be a star?
Don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who you are?
Grew up way too fast and now there's nothing to believe."

"It's lonely where you are..."

Name

"I saw the world spin beneath you. And scatter like ice from the spoon that was your womb."

Black Balloon

Fragment

One of my thesis mentor once told me this, "Your intelligence is much higher than your friends but your emotional state is very raw."

I believe that my language and verbal ability is above average; and that I am a creative person. I always excel on tasks related to those subjects and I really suck at counting. I am good at being diplomatic and carefully constructing my appearance and attitude. I can elaborately explain my train of thoughts, plans, and goals. I am good at making plans and managing. I am meticulous and detailed. I am ambitious. I am observant and prone to make good judgement out of my observation. I am good at combining logic and my very own intuition. My resume is perfect. I am resourceful. I am an A type. Alpha female.

I manage my somewhat imbalance between intelligence and emotional by compartmentalize them. I always succeeded.

But one stupid flu blew it all off. And I ruined everything.

Anna Wintour would never do that. Victoria Beckham would never do that. Even the fictional Temperance Brennan would scoff at me for blowing everything off because of a stupid flu.

I hope I could get another chance to make up this one I blew off.

"I wish for things that I don't need

All I wanted

And what I chase won't set me free

It's all I wanted

And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees."

Sympathy,

The Goo Goo Dolls